I get to tutor kids!!! Its going to be sooooooo fun. I was so worried at first, I even had a nightmare about it, but I had orientation this morning at the school and now I'm pumped. I'm sure God has summin to do with that. I've learned so much this semester already that I can't imagine what the rest of the semester will hold. I've met some great new friends... and haven't lost the old ones ( I hope ). My classes are actually fun even if I do have a Load of reading... but thats nothing compared to Calc 3. The world may be a vampire, but I've got garlic breath! ROAR!!!!!! I'se Loves this life.

Peace,
Craig

I be blog'n. No really I do be doin that. I be me that I am what ever I need to be. Shall ever I step both feet ahead? Wait that is a jump. I need to jump ahead. If I make no cents thats ok cause 2 pennies make sence. No really guys I don't know why this happens to me. I finally find summin I really want and then it doesn't happen. I don't understand why this happens. I don't mind things being hard but it helps to know it isn't a fruitless effort. I guess maybe I learn summin out of it, but I'd rather learn summin out of living it. Ok I need a hug. Maybe I am just a complainer. I really don't have anything to complain about. I have everything I could want. I have EVERYTHING. Except what I want. Maybe thats it... I am worrying about what I want? Probably... it seems to be a reacurring thing.

Just killing thoughts in my head,
Craig

My Heart Hurts

Me Oh My what a wonderful Day! It is soo nice outside and I have had a motion filled day! Good Stuff! I still have to go to my TEFB class tonight too.... and I am really tired. Oh well bottoms up.

I have been thinking latley about missed oportunities... How many have I missed and how many have I not passed up? I don't want to miss the best things in life for fear of loosing. I want to give all I have and damn the concequences. But I think i fear it too much, or I don't know how. You live and you learn. But I wish I could never hold back what I feel. But I guess that is the same with thoughts, if I never held back my thoughts (not that I do much) I would be in a world of trouble with lots of ppl. So I guess I'll just have to learn the hard way right? Heh, I don't know.

Lord, give me the courage to do your will,
Craig

Who am I? How would you describe me? How would I describe myself? Which one is true? Is either? How does one define ones self? I really don't know. Most people say I am a nice guy. I wouldn't say that. I mean I'm as nice as the next guy but I don't see myself as Mr. Nice. I like a good laugh, but I don't see myself as funny. I lift weights and run but I don't see myself as a jock type. I am intellegent, but I don't see myself as smart. What makes up me? Am I a poser? Am I really what I portray myself as being? Lots of questions, no answers. I am good at surrounding myself with things and people to hide me. I can smile and change a subject with the best of them. Not that I have too. WHat ever I am I don't want to be false with it. I want it to be really me. I want to be true to myself and others, and most especially God. Where do I stand and where will I go? I don't know. Anyway just getting questions off my mind, not that anyone reads this blog. But that is OOOOOK! Its not for you, its for me!

Peace,
Craig

HOPE... can be a good thing or a dangerous thing. It can keep you holding onto something waiting for it to get better or it can keep you going when things are desperate. If you are holding on you could be missing something better that you should be grabing onto. If you let go you could be giving away the best thing going for you. The two edged sword strikes both ways. I Hope ... I find Gods WILL.

I'm Outtie,
The only me I'll ever Be