Its been a while since I've last poured my heart out in words sublime. My mind and my heart both race for what they hope is peace. The only word I can use to describe my destination is surrender. The only place I find my solace is in Christ. I make a distinction when I say "In Christ". The reason this is done is because when we do things in Christ maybe we recognize He is all around us. He is in our friends, our trials, our joys, and our enemies. But while all of that is important, I find more and more it is of small consequence what I think, want, or desire. What matters is His will. I learn day by day that "I can't. He can." and I must learn to "Let Him." And so step by step He asks me to let go of what I want and sacrifice them in His name. And so I do my best. But my hope is that by giving up what is precious to me He has something much better in store for me. Hard as that can be to believe one must have that confidence in God. I pray for that. I pray I have Faith which gives me Hope all derived from Love. I can sum up everything I feel in two words. "I Need."

Craig