Its late, I'm tired. If I ramble forgive me you lucky few, who read my ever present words of thought.

I long desperatly for zeal and humility. Simplicity and knowledge. God has granted me so many things in my life. How do I still long for more? How do I want other than what I have? He has given me Peace, Faith, Friends, Family, and Love. Maybe what I want is not something I don't have, but perhaps an application of what He has already given me. A way to put to use what I have from Him. That sounds much more likley. Because I am satisfied by what I have and perhaps with less. All I really need to live happily is Mass and Confession and Prayer, I think. I mean what else is neccesary? Sure there are plenty of things I'd like to have and that might be acceptable in my life and even highten my spirituality, but are they neccesary? No. I think not. In this way I am abundantly rich/blessed. But I need a way to put these to action. I use them. I try to give generously of my gifts. I often fall short and am imperfect by my own actions. Often I am a hypocrite, but I try not to be. I long to be humble but pride often takes hold. I try to be wise but wisdom often takes the form of foolishness. What I really want is to know my vocation. To marry? To be ordained? To live single? These are the real questions that plauge me. I try to follow peace and peace leads me to Mass. And thankfully, my inner imperfections tear me down driving me to confession and prayer and not away from it. To know my vocation would be wonderful. But Fr. Mike often says we already know our vocation "Your vocation is to Love". Very insightful. Basically if we follow Love we are doing God's will for us. Good to know. But still I would like to know more. But till then I learn an excercise in patience.

I Love the Mass. and God Bless Fr. Kurt.

Peace,
Craig