Light is my burden. But heavy is my mind. I think too much... or too little. I don't know which. I heard an interesting homily this morning at St. James in Spring. Fr. Charlie was talking about the journey and submission and Faith of Mother Mary. And how she said yes to God repeatedly and didn't become angry and questions when things didn't go as expected but only contuinued to do as God asked. Increadible. I think of all the times I've asked questions of God and questioned what He was telling me to do. Maybe its because I'm not really sure what He is saying but what ever it is I question alot. Many times I've said I just wish I knew what it is He was asking... and I still wonder.

I've really liked this girl for a bit now but all I see in the future is me being patient and just waiting but I know at some point I should act. In the mean time I wait....I don't know for how long but I wait. I'm fine with the idea of being friends with this girl and nothing more if that is what God wants. I know what God wants is what is best for her and best for me. But I just wish God would let me know... ya know? I know this is part of my formation for who God wants me to be but at the same time I feel like I'm in a stasis. Not moving forward or backward. But I know thats not true from the many ways I've grown this semester. I know I have. And I have Faith in God because He has gifted me with that.

Side note: You know all those prayers you used to pray and then forgot about??? Yeah those prayer that you don't even remember? Yeah I don't think God has forgoten just because we have. Just imagine all those prayers you've prayed that are being answered now after so long of having for got about them.


Faith is an Action of the Heart.


I found this old poem I wrote it really makes me happy:

Fear not an open heart,
Nor a longing not to part.
Here truth of life is found,
When your Love runs wild without bound.

Cold you will be at times,
All words will not rhyme.
Songs will not alwasy be sung,
Nor will every bell be rung.
But the rock on which you stand,
Will stand fast, stronger than any land.

A soul of tender longing,
Out lasts one of steal molding.

La Ti Da... new post in Craig Land. I'm so unmotivated... I pretty much make my own hours at work so I have no incentive to do anymore than is necessary... Instead of working how much I was planing on I find myself skipping out early after I've finished the things that can't be skipped.... sigh oh well.
I went to houston yesterday and had a blast. Visited Elizebeth ( can't spell) and Joey. It was deff worth the drive.
I had a good Christmas, no conflicts at home and a relaxed low stress holiday. However my Mom did pretty much call me fat... not directly like that but in so many words thats what she ment.
College Station is so lonely without you guys :( you should come visit me. Really you should. You can even crash at my old apt which I have cleaned out now. I need to go by there today... and take care of the last minute details before I'm gone for good.
Oh yeah and feel free to call me. I'd like ppl to call me. Please!?!?!

Peace,
Craig