I'm outta my mind
I can not find
The self in me
Which will let me be
The whole and complete
Presence of Peace
Feeding me
In eternity
Live in Love
But hard to find
Nevermind
I don't have the time...

Ok sooooo I'm kinda confused.... i know a rarity right? lol no all the time. I don't really know what God wants me to do in my life. Its like I think I'm supposed to do one thing and then bam I"m like ummmm maybe not that. I'm not even refering to specific instances, just life in general. I feel like my Faith life is moving along but I also feel like summin is still slightly off course... I kinda know what that is too. My vocation! I feel called to married life, but am open to the idea of holy orders as well, I'm even open to being called to single life. But right now I feel called to married life and I'm like ok I know God has summin planned but I'm alwasy trying to guess what it is... not trying to force it but predict it. and I don't know why but I alwasy guess wrong ;) its like I can't read God's mind or summin. I"m like this could be what He wants, and then it isn't soo or if it is I don't know yet. oh well, I need to learn patience anyway. but i desire so much to know... but I know He's forming me spiritually for what is to come. Ok well anyway Its bedtime or at least time to start that way.

Peace yo,
Craig

Well I'm finally back to College... I've been back for a more than a week and I'm just now finding time to sit down and write in this thingy. I've met a lot of new ppl in the past week and developed some better friendships with those I didn't know so well before. I'm trying to set goals for myself this semester and stick too them the top two on there are being completely devoted to God's Will and holding nothing back and doing well in school. I really need to start developing Job skills and go on the lookout for job related interships. Plus I am kinda intrested in that. I need to decern God's will as well I mean I really don't know where He wants me, single, married, a priest?!?!?!?! We'll see I suppose. I feel really drawn towards the married life, but i don't really know if that is what I want or what God wills. I'm sure He'll let me know if i do the wrong thing. But on the whole I'm so grateful for St. Mary's it alwasy keeps me growing in my Faith. I am soo Thankfull for the wonderful friends I have and look forward to making more.

Peace, Craig